Stories from the Hospital

October 15th Ryan found me laying on the floor in the kitchen.  I had 3 grand mal seizures back to back, hit my head on the refrigerator (apparently so hard that I moved the fridge) and hit my face on the countertop.  Once the paramedics arrived I wasn't responsive and couldn't breathe on my own.  Due to this I was incubated with a breathing tube in ICU. 

Unfortunately, I was unconscious and did not wake up until 30 hours later on Tuesday afternoon.  This was quite scary and a little overwhelming.  Once they were able to remove the breathing tube then I was able to leave ICU and be moved to another floor of the hospital. 

On Wednesday afternoon (after having MRI's, EEG's, Cat Scans, etc.) my doctor told me that I had pneumonia in both of my lungs.  This seemed to be too scary and too much to handle in a few days.  I was so scared and kept questioning Jesus of why He was allowing this to happen to me.  However, after several visitors, blessings and prayers; my faith was strengthened.  I heard the story of Job from one of my fellow church members and it helped me to realize that even though the world seems to be crushing around me-that Christ is still there.  Job had gone through pain that no one should have to go through, but he endured and God blessed him in abundance.

One of the other Bible verses that was shared with me was found in II Corinthians 12: 9-10.  "But He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.  Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong".  This verse is so beautiful.  It was read to me several times in the hospital and it was so hard listening to it, especially when everything was happening.  However, now that I've read through and prayed (LOTS) I can understand how Jesus is there in weakness.  Even though it is very hard to understand, especially as things are still very difficult, I am praying and having faith knowing that He is there, He was in the hospital room with me watching over me and He is in our home.

I was let out of the hospital nine days later and have been able to return home.  Unfortunately, my legs are really weak and the dizziness has almost been unbearable to where I need to use a walker.  I had a home therapist come today and tomorrow I get to meet with my primary to decide the next steps. 

I am truly grateful for my family.  It was very hard going through all of this and there is no way that I could have gone through this by myself.  They were there through everything and I believe that was a gift from Christ.  He illustrated His love through them.  (This was taken a few days before all of this occurred-I love my family!)

It has been a difficult few weeks and I am very grateful for the prayers.